Something’s come to my mind in the last week or so. I’ll just come out with it and then explain myself (to myself).
I’ve got to do something with my time. Michelle and I talked about what our lives will be like once we move to Rochester – that is after all the dust settles from moving. We’ll probably be seeing each other a fair amount less than we do now. I need to find something to fill the gap. I really hope that I’m able to find some good work quickly up there. I need something beyond that. I know that I’m no social butterfly. I never have been and never will be. But I do need something more than what I’ve got going now.
So, let’s see. What exactly is it that I want to do? I want to do music. I want to talk to people about the shit rattling around in my head. I want to read books to make more shit rattle around in my head. Some things are necessary to do this. I need time and space. I’ve got all the time in the world on my hands. I need a bit more space than I’ve got right now. That shouldn’t be too hard. I would like to start practicing guitar more and actually play in a band. I would like to get involved in discussion groups. I’m actually thinking about doing a podcast. I’m not sure about these things. The Podcast thing I think is a little out there but hey, why not give it a go?
I feel like my life is going in a certain direction. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so optimistic about things: about chance, myself, my abilities, the future, etc. I’m actually feeling a little impatient about getting up there and starting to do all of this shit. I’ve been plugging away at my 10 year reading plan. Still on my first year but about half way through it! I have to bear in mind that all of these things I want to do for their own sake. If I can make a buck off of them, fine, sure. I’m ready to go out there and do stuff. Let’s go!!